Today I just came out of the hospital.
It’s still hard to believe that it really happened, but it really did.
On Wednesday we went on a bike trip with my love it was so great, so free, too short…
I had an accident. Yes, I had. I still telling it to myself because I never thought something like that could happen with me or anyone who I love.
I can’t remember to much but I remember my boyfriend’s frightened pale face, as he repeating that he loves me and everything will be all right.
Than I remember that in the ambulance I wanted to tell the paramedic which medicines are the ones I have allergie. And he said I told it several times before that’s why we are going to the hospital. I wasn’t even frightend. Now I know it was because I had a traumatic shock. I haven’t felt the pain. The injections. I was calm.
At the hospital everything happened so fast. After they tied my wounds and sent me to the CT, the X-ray and the ultra sound. Everybody was so frightend and I couldn’t understand why, I haven’t felt myself that bad, I haven’t felt any pain at all. I was talking to them all the time. Mostly a lot of shit, as my boyfriend told afterwards. And after all this, they left me on the corridor.
And He was there, all the time!
And after that somehow my brain came back to normal. As we were waiting for the results, we were laughing so much.
I’m so lucky that I have Him. I know it’s more than sappy, but I’m lucky. I have the greatest Man ever. He was so brave even tho I know how worried he was. I know how much he’s afraid of blood, but he held my head and didn’t let me to bleed to death!
And now after two days I’m in my own bed and in one week there will be only a scar which will remind us for the accident.
Probably it’s ridicuolus, cuz all of my medical records were negativ, it was just the too much blood.
But still I’m glad for my life. It could ended much worse… Even the doctors told that I have a little angel who takes care about me. Well yes, I have Him. And He LOVES me… really does. And I love Him so much.
I have this amazing life, with these amazing people in it :). I can do what I want. A can’t ask for anything else.
Sorry, it’s sappy, but I had to share it. :)